the air is coming

i am sure that you have seen the film Signs, a film by M. Night Shyamalan portraying the  different “signs” within a families life in relation to a alien encounter.

in the scene in the basement while the family is hiding from the (spoiler alert) alien encounter, the young son has a asthma attack, to which his medications are upstairs with the danger and can not be reached. the father holds his son and during this says to him “…do not be scared … the air is coming … believe …”

this has become my mantra lately. as i have no idea what i am doing, how this is going to work out or how the questions and concerns are going to be answered or problems solved. i am scared, really scared – that this will all be in vain and i will fail. not only am i afraid that i am going to fail, but that i am going to let those down who invested time, and frankly and large some of money into this. i am terrified that i am not good enough and i will snuff out not only my light but those who depend on me to be a leader, a mother.

i am gasping for air telling myself that “… the air is coming”. my heart waits knowing the air is coming, my brain however, is just thinking.

the air is coming, the air is coming, my air is coming …

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One thought on “the air is coming

  1. “There are only two mistakes one can make along the road to truth; not going all the way, and not starting.” buddha
    The air is coming…please breathe…deep cleansing breathes. Please don’t allow your fear to cloud your hope, your light, brilliance. Accept yourself and carry on. Good luck!

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