DEAR my babies, friends, family, relatives, acquaintances, distant companions, lovers, and loved ones….
first do not fear for the walk was short, the breeze was kind and the way well lit
i know you must be wondering what heaven is like, i was too and i can’t even create the words to speak
Jesus is here, he met me at the door took me in his arms and said “welcome home”
there were no clouds that lead my feet but light that followed us as if it was commanded to do so
the most glorious sounds not from the mouth of angels but the hearts of saints welcoming me back
and praising the King who leads
me into the house, you know that big big house with a “big big yard were we can play football”
oh how i wish you were here, but then i guess you would not be there. and oh, there, how is it there? I almost forgot about ‘there’ i miss them,those little boys that you gave, i miss you and that gentle hand as it squeezes mine and as i look up i see
see him, i see him, God. His arms that are larger than anything I have ever seen, yet small enough to hold my hand, and in his hand, and around me. Oh what a glorious gift this is, this is Love and this is Grace.
i say to God, I miss them, there love and hands, and that little noise they make when they snuggle up against me that smell from there freshly washed hair, the way they run to me when I came home, hearing about their day, sharing their tears, the loud arguments and the whining, can i see them smile, or walk down the isle, give me peace about being in this place with you
please forgive my doubt, my sadness and my fear
can i fear here?
can i hurt?
i am so confused God.
then God said, “Peace my child, let me hold you and wipe your tears, hold you close and let you cry into my hand”
and then he said this “Be Still”
and just as my heart was about to explode with pain from missing you more than i could ever say, i blinked.
“MOMMY. MOMMY!!! i’m home” and i opened my eyes to see you running towards me hand in hand with Jesus and the other arm open as far as the sea.
‘welcome home i said’
so do not fear, do not hurt, do not worry, climb into His lap and cry into his hand for i blink and we will be together again.