A Look Back

Today I caught up with some people from high school and realized that I was a little behind. I am not married, just finishing up my undergrad and trying to be a mom in between life and lit papers. I started to feel a huge sense of defeat, I wanted to cry and I thought wow, what will I say at the reunion next year…should I even bother to go?

Then I heard God say to me, “do not even go there my dear. You have found me in all these years since high school, brought others to me, shared with those who did not want to hear about me and most of all you are bringing up your children in my ways” then I still felt defeated but loved as well. And thenĀ  God spoke again saying “I know the plans I have for you, plan to prosper you and give you a future. Seek first my Kingdom and I will give you the desires of your heart.” then I felt warm and remembered that no matter how far away I feel whether I feel Him under my skin or feel like the moon is closer to me than He is, I know that He lives within me and that He is my breath and heartbeat.

I don’t know any more about theology than a jack rabbit does about ping-pong, but I am on the way to glory –Billy Sunday