the air is coming

i am sure that you have seen the film Signs, a film by M. Night Shyamalan portraying the  different “signs” within a families life in relation to a alien encounter.

in the scene in the basement while the family is hiding from the (spoiler alert) alien encounter, the young son has a asthma attack, to which his medications are upstairs with the danger and can not be reached. the father holds his son and during this says to him “…do not be scared … the air is coming … believe …”

this has become my mantra lately. as i have no idea what i am doing, how this is going to work out or how the questions and concerns are going to be answered or problems solved. i am scared, really scared – that this will all be in vain and i will fail. not only am i afraid that i am going to fail, but that i am going to let those down who invested time, and frankly and large some of money into this. i am terrified that i am not good enough and i will snuff out not only my light but those who depend on me to be a leader, a mother.

i am gasping for air telling myself that “… the air is coming”. my heart waits knowing the air is coming, my brain however, is just thinking.

the air is coming, the air is coming, my air is coming …

Well its FINALS…(dunt, dunt, dunnnnn)

images-1.jpegSo I have not been writing for a while due to long hours (sleep is for slackers) and studying like its the end of the world. Which leads me to this argument…HOW TO WORRY (in 5 easy steps)

  1. make a List
  2. decide when to worry 
  3. decide what to worry about
  4. decide when to stop worry and when to start
  5. bring in friends who are happy and worry free (no one likes to be alone)

Does this not look like a to-do list. We make them everyday, and follow them sometimes to a tee. So in this time of finals and stress I say worry on my friends, worry on. what do you worry about? (exerted from todays chapel….in case anyone asked)