mY wIsH LisT

**this video is my favorite from childhood – its how i picture myself telling God what my heart desires [like his doesn't already know, lol]

Tanner has been asking about a husband, telling me his wish list for this person (cute, eh?) so here’s mine:

1. must be hot! not talking cute, good looking, nice – I want hot! I have wasted too much time on acceptable.
2. by hot: tall-er 5′11 – 6′3, well groomed, hair, light or really dark eyes, baby soft skin, no unibrow, eyelashes longer than mine, own a pair of nose trimmers and use them, ears (sounds simple but you never know), no hair issues on chest stomach or back, does not need to look like a body builder but I do appreciate a nice physique, a a** would be fun but not too much, no kankles, nice feet.
3. Knows how to dress – I dig peacoats, turtlenecks, trousers, shoes that do not have letter or animals or characters on them, boxer or boxer briefs, no excessive chains medallions rings or earrings, piercing are ok if well done.
4. THE MAJOR STUFF
5. HONEST
6. FAITHFUL
7. COMES HOME TO ME
8. LOVES GOD WITH ALL HIS LIFE
9. Cooks
10. eats
11. sleeps
12. likes dogs cats and enjoys spending time around my animals (i have a sphinx)
13. likes to travel to new places and explore them
14. will travel with WITH me
15. not afraid to try new food places things ideas
16. is smart i mean really smart in a backward not so noticeable way (like the brains of dickinson, dorothy parker, southpark creators, Steve jobs, Mike Rowe, lil wayne [seriously read his lyrics  - they are genius])
17. LOVES MY KIDS AND WANTS TO MAKE BABIES
18. BRITISH ACCENTS ARE BONUS
19. loves to watch movies (i like bollywood a lot)
20. likes to talk on walks
21. loves to go driving
22. take me out – alot
23. like to have people over to play games like Cranium and cards
24. Like to travel with other families
25. thinks prostitution, porn, cheating on ones partner, lying and deception are negative to a growing relationship
26. LIKES MY FRIENDS
27. likes snow, skiing and mountains
28. does not hold it against me that i do not dig yardwork
29. loves to grow things like veggies
30. thinks organic is the only way to go
31. understands that i could have a orgasm everytime i go to wholefoods – its that wonderful! and does not think that is weird.
32. loves that i share my secrets with him and that he shares his with me.
33. TAKES MY BOYS TO GAMES, PARK, RIDE BIKES, FISHING, CAMPING, TO GET DIRTY AND DIG IN THE DIRT – all the things they missed out on.
34. knows that i am a little quirky  - but loves it!
35. is proud of me
36. thinks im beautiful even with pjs and tears
37. loves to dress me up and show me off
38. understands that i think outloud and loves to here me talk
39. know im an idea person and loves it
40. loves that i dream
41. lets me love him
42. lets me take care of him
43. lets me stay home and raise our family even though he knows i could be doing something amazing at the office
44. doesn’t get mad when i forget stuff or fall asleep during the movie
45. reads to the boys
46. leads the boys in Christ
47. prays with and for us and our family
48. doesn’t mind coming home to mess sometimes
49. is my friend, lover, and  knows when to be them and when to let me be his
50. knows my 5 loves languages and let me know his
51. is my knight in shinning armour
52. lets me be me
53. laughs at me when i make dinner and it burns because i had to share with him the news of the day
54. loves that i run to him
55. is open to me loving him in the quirky ways i do
56. loves the notes i leave on his car  and in his breifcase and on his  phone
57. loves that i surprise him with things
58. loves that i am a lady but a freak in bed
59. loves that i love him
60. loves that we have blessings
61. understands that money and things are not as important as family and life
62. HE NEVER RAISES HIS VOICE TO ME OR THE KIDS
63. WOULD NEVER HIT OR ABUSE ME OR THE KIDS
64. WOULD NEVER BRING SOMETHING INTO OUR LIVES THAT WOULD HURT US
65. is strong
66. knows how to fix stuff bc i sure dont
67. he knows how to laugh at life
68. has tattoos not bc its cool but bc they mean something to him
69. is an artist
70. has a job
71. has a career
72. established
73. loves that i grew up the way i did
74. knows me inside and out
75. willing
76. trusts
77. gives
78. takes
79. provides
80. shares
81. not sure if i could do *secret* that…. i trust you God.
82. IS A MAC
83. or if he is a pc is willing to convert.
84. knows the 2 BIG SECRETS about me and does not care but supports me in the struggle.
85. LOVES GOD MORE THAN ME – and knows i do too!

ok so this is it! if you fit the bill – APPLY!

freestyle

my writing has been in the past, well, somewhat scripted. scratch that, it has been scripted. scripted for parents, friends, facebook, kids, brother, twitter, strangers, the world. no more.

todays rant, ready? here we go.

thanksgiving, holidays, family, school, kids, life, laundry, dishes, music, christmas, shopping, baby daddy, clutter, cleaning, nap, sleepy, liking rap, weight, yoga, vacuuming, putting up clean clothes, kids, dinner, music, diet pepsi, #lilwayne, mentorship, community, church, God, lies, truth, strength, alone again for the holidays, graduation, finals, papers, money, bills, insurance, hipocracy, fake people, anger, frustration, lies, ahghhghhg, sales, coupons, showering today; all this is on my mind at any given time or more than likely it’s on my mind all at the same time. ARGHGHRHGH.

so just so you my faithful five followers, no longer will I hold back but instead let all this go into the soup of lyrical splendor that is my blog. welcome to my reality, don’t get lost.

cordially,

Stacey

Love me or hate me, I promise it wont break me.  - LW